| At war here in Thursday... |
[Aug. 11th, 2004|03:50 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  angry | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | The Suicide Machines - "Your Silence" | ] |
Demo and Luis are fucking ridiculous. Picking on me like I'm going to sit and take that shit. If they're so tough why are they picking on a girl? Then Demo has the nerve to come out and say that the comments were towards Will. Well, Will has never done a damn thing to them and me and him are cool now so wtf. This is so childish.
For some good news...The pics from Warped are developed...when this chick brings them I'll try and see if I get them scanned...Iono where though...O_o but yea and I will post them.
Later days |
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| Forget my name... |
[Aug. 9th, 2004|09:13 am] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Taking Back Sunday - "Your Own Disaster" | ] |
*Just think of this and me as just a few of many things to lie around, to clutter up your shelves and I wish you weren't worth the wait because there's some thing's I'd like to say to you...I don't think that you know what you've been missing. I dare you to forget those marks you left across my neck from those nights when we were both found at our best. I could make this obvious, and you could deny me all in one breath, you could shrug me off your shoulders... Hey, lush, have fun...It's the weekend. Just forget me it's that simple.......*
...and the story continues...</3 |
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| COHEED OWNS WARPED TOUR! |
[Aug. 8th, 2004|12:27 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | clean YEY | ] |
I went to Warped! YEY! It was so...great like nothing mattered but the music and I was sweaty and dust was flying in the air from kids moshing and I didn't care. lol. It was so awesome I havn't had a good day like that in a while so I'm feeling quite good right now. I wrote about it in my Xanga so that's the link that says "My life as I know it".
Great day...great day...despite a few things.
"Forget my name...." |
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| I have weird conversations |
[Aug. 5th, 2004|08:44 pm] |
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Tony: you look like the dude from atreyu all that red make up...except hot and like not a man yo |
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| <333 |
[Aug. 4th, 2004|07:32 pm] |
Goryosos666 [7:25 PM]: okay but you gotta do 2 things for me
DarkStars7 [7:25 PM]: uh oh
DarkStars7 [7:25 PM]: lol what
Goryosos666 [7:26 PM]: first i want you to kick the crap outta all the drug dealers and child rapers
Goryosos666 [7:27 PM]: then i went you to go to the pope and tell him to stop talking about me,he doesn't know me, he's an asshole and his hat looks fucking STUPID
<3 |
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| Just shut up |
[Aug. 2nd, 2004|03:16 am] |
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| |  tired | ] |
I miss everything about those days.....even all the bad that came along with it. It was at least a reminder that I do feel. I feel quite empty now...there's just nothing and no one and I've recently discovered that emptiness is one of the worse feelings yet.........is this just another part of the recovery process?
**Living dreams, loving dreams, awakening to what I've always dreamt of. The familiar sound of lovely love from the love of my life will keep the notes coming. From the reciting of the show, from the plip and the shevanel, from the grind that annoys, and the sarcasm, they all hate...forever I worship. I'll kill, love, and hate for all of you. Thank you for the best part of my life** |
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| </3 |
[Jul. 31st, 2004|09:21 pm] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Brad Paisly - "Whiskey Lullaby" | ] |
**She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby
The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby...**
I <3 people who can really make me smile...<333
Later Days
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| This case...is CLOSED! |
[Jul. 30th, 2004|11:30 am] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Coheed and Cambria - "Sister Cristian" | ] |
My case for the PINS is closed on August 4th. Yey! Oh man it's been tough time with that. So fucking happy.
Allysia told me Monty Love is playing is playing tomorrow night. I WANT TO GO! I <3 the Monty Love. Maybe I'll go I don't know...I know I'm going to Warped Tour! YEY! I can't wait it's going to be fucking great! That would suck I can't go last minute, lol. Well I gotta start getting ready, the guys are coming over...
Later Days
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| Bleh |
[Jul. 29th, 2004|04:10 am] |
? ‡” I N F O R M A T I O N ‡” ? ‡”
Name: Nikki
Single or taken: stolen
Sex: female
Birthday: 6/9
Sign: gemini
Siblings: 3
Hair color: black/brown
Eye color: brown
Height: 5’6"
‡” ? ‡” R E L A T I O N S H I P S ‡” ? ‡”
Who are your best friends?: I have none anymore
You have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: It's harder than you think
‡” ? ‡” F A S H I O N | S T U F F ‡” ? ‡”
Where is your favorite place to shop: I don't care as long as I look good in the clothes
‡” ? ‡” S P E C I F I C S ‡” ? ‡”
Do you do drugs?: Shut up
What kind of shampoo do you use?: Thermasilk
What are you most scared of?: future...lonlyness
What are you listening to right now?: Saosin
Who is the last person that called you?: Jason
Where do you want to get married?: In a beautiful feild...mad flowers and stuff awww
How many buddies are online right now?: 11
What would you change about yourself?: everything
‡” ? ‡” F A V O R I T E S ‡” ? ‡”
Color: green
Food: none
Boys names: dante, cristian
Girls names: autumn, Delilah
subjectsts in school: none
Animals: pandas
‡” ? ‡” H A V E | Y O U | E V E R ‡” ? ‡”
Given anyone a bath?: wtf
Smoked?: I do
Bungee jumped?: fuck no
Made yourself throw up?: I was really drunk I had too
Skinny dipped?: no
Ever been in love?: Yes </3
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Lol
Pictured your crush naked?: Who wouldnt
Actually seen your crush naked?: Lmao
Cried when someone died?: no shit
Lied: I do what I got too
Fallen for your best friend?: shut up
Been rejected?: Yea
Rejected someone?: Yea
Done something you regret?: Alot of things
‡” ? ‡” C U R R E N T ‡” ? ‡”
Clothes: jeans and a wife beater
Music: saosin
Make-up: none
Annoyance: alot
Smell: my room?
Computer Screen: I got Adriana Lima on my desktop ^_^
Book you're reading: None
CD in player?: a rare AFI mix cd
DVD in player: Jackass volume 2...I'm a dork
‡” ? ‡” L A S T | P E R S O N ‡” ? ‡”
You touched: Myself lol
Hugged: Sam
You imed: I think it was Sang cause my away message was on since then
You yelled at: Jason
You kissed: Gary
‡” ? ‡” A R E | Y O U ‡” ? ‡”
Understanding?: Yea
Open-minded: Yea
Arrogant: Ive been told
Insecure: very
Random: OVER AND OUT CONNECTICUT!
Hungry: very
Smart: am I?
Moody: yea
Hard working: nope
Organized: yea
Healthy: ::cough:: fuck no
Shy: Depends
Difficult: sometimes
Bored easily: VERY
Responsible?: ehh
Angry: I have a short temper
Sad: mostly
Happy: bleh
Hyper: mellow
Trusting: yea
‡” ? ‡” W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A ‡” ? ‡”
Kill?: Many
Slap: Adam
Get really drunk with?: Everyone
Get high with?: everyone
Talk to offline: Sang
Talk to online: Gary
‡” ? ‡” R A N D O M ‡” ? ‡”
In the morning I am: Asleep
All you need is: Love
Love is: something I wish for
I dream about: crazy shit
What do you notice first in the sex you're into: personlity, attitude
‡” ? ‡” W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R ‡” ? ‡”
Coke or Pepsi: pepsi
Flowers or candy: flowers
Tall or short: Ehh
‡” ? ‡” W H O ‡” ? ‡”
Makes you laugh the most: Everyone
Makes you smile: certain ppl
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: Gary
‡” ? ‡” D O | Y O U | E V E R ‡” ? ‡”
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: No
Save conversations: only if it can be used for blackmail
Wish you were younger: no
Cry because someone said something to you?: depends what they said
‡” ? ‡” N U M B E R ‡” ? ‡”
Of times I have had my heart broken: too many
Of hearts i have broken: tradegy in error
Guys ive kissed: alot
Girls ive kissed: alot
Of scars on my body: alot
Of things i regret: too many
.x.YOUR|THOUGHTS.x.
i know: too much
i want: love
i have: nothing
i wish: for more
i hate: everything
i fear: the future
i hear: silence
i search: for truth
i wonder: where you are
i love: to be loved |
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| Maturity? Bad spelling yes? Word... |
[Jul. 27th, 2004|03:37 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | suffering from insomnia | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Dashboard Confessional - "Hands Down" | ] |
DarkStars7: that looks a lil gay
GAPJR783: flaming
DarkStars7: ur the human flame
GAPJR783: yes i am
DarkStars7: flame on faggot |
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| Me and my star... |
[Jul. 26th, 2004|03:22 am] |
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With the way things have been going latley, it makes me realize how much I wish to be in love... >_ |
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| drunkXcore |
[Jul. 25th, 2004|06:12 pm] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Scatter the Ashes - "Caesura" | ] |
Quite an interesting weekend. Everyone came...last night Gary and Alf came. Everyone went to sleep so me, them and Sid went out for a late night walk at 4am. Came back around 5 and watched some Tv. They left like at 7 and I was going to break night but at 8 I fell asleep. Now I'm...it's so nice out...and no one wants to hang out as always. Fuck this I need a beer...
Laaate
(`'•.¸ (`'•.¸ *¤* ¸.•'´) ¸.•'´)
«´¨`•..¤ N I K K I ¤..•´¨`»
(¸.•'´(¸.•'´ *¤* `'• .¸)`'•.¸) |
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| <3 </3 |
[Jul. 24th, 2004|07:00 pm] |
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| | pissed off | ] |
I am so bored. I'm going to jump out a damn window if these guys all keep pissing me off. This is the last weekend half these people ever come over. Chris pissed me off last night and Gary said he apologized...bullshit. Gary is an asshole too, can't seem to sit in one spot, he always has to leave me. Screw them all. Sid is way too loud, and Jason is so going to get it if Gary finds out the shit he said about me. If Gary doesn't do anything then he's a pussy and Jason is just never coming back. I'm tired...I got no sleep. Bio wanted to come over too but he never called back. Bleh...I need new people to hang out with...like really...they're way to over active.
Later Days |
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| Bored |
[Jul. 23rd, 2004|05:11 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | waiting for company 2 get here | ] |
Your mad good Sang <3
lol just wanted to say that :-P |
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| What's Next?! |
[Jul. 23rd, 2004|02:16 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | ugly | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Co&Ca - "33" | ] |
On top of having bad hair, I have a sty in my eye again. What in gay fucking hell is up? Just not my weekend is it. Now I have a bad feeling something worse is going to happen. Lol. Maybe I'm just being dramatic but damn this sucks....sucks big time...
What sucks more? Next Friday on the 30th I have to see my probation officer regarding my PINS. My mom had a fit because the letter states I need a report card and I never got one. I never got one because I thought I was done with school. Oh wait I KNOW I'm done so what the fuck? She insists my PO is going to be an ass about it. I hate my PO, she's this fat shit who probably hasn't gotten laid in 30 years because she's a fuckin asshole. I hope she slips on shit and dies. I can't stand the bitch. Rudness gets NOWHERE with me. To be honest I can care less if I get in any more trouble because cursing her out will make me feel a million times better, it'll be so worth it. No body talks down to me like that... |
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| Damn Americans |
[Jul. 22nd, 2004|11:57 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | Just bored | ] |
This, to me is, very true
It's been odd times...odd times
P R Ninja 187: I'LL HELP YOU WITH THAT I KNOW YOU NEED TO GET LAID GOOD ......I BTING THE PAIN HERES MY NUMBER CALL ME WHEN YOU ARE UP FOR AN EVEN EXCHANGE
Nothing seems serious anymore...everything is a joke now...Is it a step up from the way things used to be? I suppose so...but I don't want my life to be a joke...things are getting quite out of hand...quite fun actually, guess I'll go along with it for a short while. Yes...along... |
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| Woah Woah Woah! |
[Jul. 22nd, 2004|06:12 pm] |
The power went out today for about half hour. Sucked. It's way to hott for that kind of shit. Everything is back on now thankfully. My hair is still fucked up though. My friend came over and FUCKED UP MY BANGS! It looks horrible. So now I'm forced to tye my hair back or wear a hat till it grows out past my nose at least. >_< So that'll take a good month or two. Fuck...tomorrow everyone's coming over for another weekend of drinking and stupity. Fun....
Later Days |
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| </3 </3 </3 |
[Jul. 21st, 2004|03:34 pm] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Last Days of April - "Piano" | ] |
Seven things that scare you:
1. Love
2. Life
3. Heights
4. Bridges
5. Silent Hill 1,2, & 3
6. Myself
7. Future
Seven things you love:
1. MUSIC
2. Friends
3. Love
4. Autumn
5. Winter
6. Beer
7. The rain
Seven things you hate:
1. Drama
2. Love
3. Summer
4. June
5. Not having the house to myself
6. Dial Up
7. and a million other things
Seven things in your room:
1. Beds
2. My sisters stuff
3. Dresser
4. TV
5. Skateboard I never use
6. Clothes
7. a very high ceiling
Seven random facts about you:
1. I'm a good story teller
2. I can survive a week on NyQuil and soup
3. I sleep ALOT
4. I'm not as happy as I seem
5. I'm tired
6. I wish I found someone I like
7. Because I all my bf's are losers
Seven things you want to do before you die:
1. Be succesful
2. Fall in love
3. Get married
4. Have maybe 1 kid
5. Learn to skate
6. Learn guitar
7. Make peace with everyone...or settle things the hard way
Seven things you can do:
1. Sleep all day
2. Have a good time
3. I'm good with cpu's
4. Sing?
5. Drink
6. Drink
7. Drink
Seven things you can't do:
1. Pay attention
2. Buy beer
3. stand annoying people
4. Sing
5. Move out
6. Skate
7. Play guitar
Seven songs you like:
1. "The Dreamclub Murders" - Dead Poetic
2. "The Days I Recall Being Wonderful" - Last Days of April
3. "Repeat, I Repeat, Repeat" - Folly
4. "Mordecai" - Between the Buried and Me
5. "Upon the Plains at Daybreak" - A Fall Farewell
6. "Synesthesia" - AFI
7. "Pictures Stars and Dreams" - The Juliana Theory
(...and plenty more)
Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. Personality
2. Good humor
3. Eyes
4. Body
5. Hair
6. Attitude
7. Honesty
Seven favorite movies:
1. The Rocky Horror Picture Show
2. The Shining
3. Thirteen
4. Silence of the Lambs
5. The Exorsist
6. House of 1000 Corpses
7. Nightmare Before Christmas
Seven things you say the most:
1. FUCK!
2. Oh my fucking god
3. Uhm like yea
4. So....
5. What in gay hell?
6. You fucking faggot!
7. ::fake smile::
Seven people who give great advice:
1. N
2. O
3.
4. O
5. N
6. E
7. !
Seven bands you like:
1. Coheed and Cambria
2. Saosin
3. Dead Poetic
4. A Fall Farewell
5. Boys Night Out
6. FATA
7. Atreyu
Seven things you regret:
1. Last summer
2. Dropping out
3. Going out with alot of people
4. I
5. Don't
6. Regret
7. Much
Seven of your favorite foods:
1. I
2. Don't
3. Eat
4. Too
5. Many
6. Different
7. Things |
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| Awake when the sun hits the sky |
[Jul. 21st, 2004|02:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | pissed beyond all reason | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | 40 Below Summer - "Rain" | ] |
WHAT THE FUCK IS EVERYONE'S PROBLEM! Like I fucking did something wrong. I wish someone would give me a valid example of a mistake I made because all of this is beyond me. They treat me like shit and get mad because I'm upset. What kind of shit is that....... >_<
I don't need this....... |
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| FUCK! |
[Jul. 20th, 2004|09:47 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | made 2 feel guilty as usual... | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Me singing LDOA | ] |
Not Sorry
I'm Sorry
I'm Not Sure......
</3 |
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| In a house that's no longer your home |
[Jul. 19th, 2004|06:51 pm] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Last Days of April - "Piano" | ] |
Finally some peace and quiet. The guys finally left me alone for now. I'm broke and have no food but thankfully mom's coming home today to save my ass. I might go to the movies tomorrow with cookie. Wednesday I might go with Gerardo to the movies, Thursday I plan on being in the city for Gary, Friday Bio wants to hang out but I'm not sure and this weekend Gary and his cousin are coming over. Busy week? Nah...it's times like this I need a job. L-A-Z-Y.
Later Days |
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| I'LL FIRE ON!!! |
[Jul. 18th, 2004|02:55 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | Sleepy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Story of the Year - "Burning Years" | ] |
It's story time motherfuckers...and they won't live to tell the end...^_^ |
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| Heaven ain't close in a place like this |
[Jul. 16th, 2004|03:44 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | Choke me please | ] |
I'm so bored...heading back to SI soon with the guys. Gary is a dick and doesn't seem to be coming. Oh well...fucking ruiner. Gets me so fucking pissed he pissed me the fuck off last night. Really...putting on a fucking show...So anyway yea I can't wait to get home to my own bed...
Later Days |
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| </3 |
[Jul. 15th, 2004|02:23 pm] |
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| | Bored and leaving town | ] |
1.name spelled backwards: Ikkin
2. Where were your parents born?: Iono
3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?: A Fall Farewell
4. What's your favorite restaurant?: None
5. Last time you swam in a pool?: 2 years ago...I hate the pool
6. Have you ever been in a school play?: Almost
7. How many kids do you want?: Maybe 1
8. Type of music you dislike most?: Pop Rock
9. Are you registered to vote?: No
10. Do you have a car?: I wish
11. Have you ever ridden on a moped?: No
12. Ever prank call anybody?: "This is the department of Imgigration" LMAO Good times
13. Ever get a parking ticket?: No I don't drive
14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: Fuck no
16. Do you have a garden?: Aw no...I have alot of plants though
17. What's the size of your bed?: Twin
18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?: I think
19. Bath or Shower, morning or night? Shower, morning and night
20.Best Movie You've seen in the Last 4 months?: I don't watch alot of movies
21. What's the next movie you want to see?: I don't know
22. Chips or popcorn?: Popcorn
23. Have you ever broken any hearts?: I don't think so
24. Premarital sex?: Good times
25. Are you a good cook?: Unless you like food poisoning
26. Orange or Apple juice?: Orange, I fucking HATE apple juice
27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you go to?: No one
28. Favorite type of drink?: Beer, Corona
29. Best thing in the world?: MUSIC
30. Have you ever broken a bone?: No
31. Have you ever won a trophy?: Nah not special enough
32. What is your favorite board game?: Monopoly
33. What is your dream car?: Iono
34. Ever order an article from an infomercial?: No
35. Coke or Pepsi?: Pepsi
36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work?: Yea >_<
37. Last thing you bought at a pharmacy?: ...don't know
38. Who are you going to marry?: No one
39. Who would you like to meet?: A nice guy
40. Do you believe in love at first sight?: Maybe
41. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?: Personality, good attitude, humor
42. Where would you go for a romantic evening?: Romance is overrated
43. How many pairs of shoes do you own? It used to be 3 until I through out my chucks
44. Last song stuck in your head?: Atreyu - "Ain't love grand"
45. Any pets?: My sis
46. What's your all time favorite Saturday Night Live Character?: Adam Sandler's Opera man
47. What is one thing you would like to learn to do?: Play guitar or skate
50. What is one thing you are grateful for today?: The beautiful weather
51. Whose the bigger loser... the one who makes the survey or the one that does the survey?: Both
Can you type with your eyes closed? Yes
Can you ski? No
Can you speak in sign language? No
Can you do the butterfly stroke? What?
Can you say the alphabet backwards effortlessly? No
Can you hold your liquor? Ehh I drink more beer that liquer
Can you tie a knot in a cherry stem with your tongue? I wish
Can you run a mile in under ten minutes? It's called asthma
Can you stand the sight of blood? Yes
Can you read palms or tarot cards? I used to know somethings now I'm just too burnt out to know anything
Can you admit it when you’re wrong? Yes but I HATE it
Can you ask for help when you need it? No
Can you tie a necktie? No
Can you successfully pierce someone’s ear? No
Can you sing? Maybe
Can you name three kinds of clouds? Clouds, clouds, clouds
Can you make a bong out of anything? Hell yea, cans, empty containers of anything and etc.
Can you perform CPR on another human? No
Do you know what CPR stands for? Can Perform Racism
Can you read minds? I wish
Can you write better poetry than Shakespeare? WTF I look like
Can you dance? I don't dance
Can you speak more than one language? No
Do you know karate? No
Can you freestyle? Freestyle what?
Are you a true artist? No
Are you generous? Sometimes too much
Are you unique? Ehh
Are you afraid of spiders? VERY.
Are you afraid of death? Sometimes
Commitment? Ehh
Are you suicidal? No
Are you a natural blonde? Pretty close too it
Are you a con-artist? Hehehehe
Are you a pathological liar? No
Were you raised by small woodland creatures? No
Are you modest? Yea
Are you a stripper? No
But you like to strip, right? O yea
Are you stubborn? VERY
Are you often tired? cfs
Are you pregnant? I better not be
Are you a guy and looked at your screen funny a second ago? I still looked at it funny
Do you put yourself before all others? Depends who
Are you misunderstood? I don't know
Do you know all the words to American Pie by Don Mclean? I know some
How about all the words to the American Pie movies? No
Do you know who the Queen of Hearts in Alice in Wonderland represents? Huh
Have you ever gone skinny dipping? No
Has anyone ever licked chocolate syrup off your naked body? O_o
If not, would you like to have that done someday? No I'm good
Do you watch pro-wrestling? I HATE wrestling
.:. True or False.:.
The glass is half full: False
Life is a dark tunnel with no light at the end: True
Everyone should do yoga: False
Beauty is pain: False
Pain is beauty: True
You should do unto others as you would have them do unto you: True
There’s nothing wrong with looking: Hehehe True
Lust is more fulfilling than love: Very false
It’s a dog-eat-dog world: True
Lead or be lead: True
Kill or be killed: True
Fuck or be fucked: Hehe True
There’s nothing wrong with free things: True free = goooood
You’ve been arrested: False
The country should blame rap music for all violence: False
You’ve slept for at least fourteen straight hours: True
You’ve slept with at least fourteen people: Very false
We’re all going to hell: False
There’s a monster in your closet: Is there really?
The Ring made you scream: False it made me laugh I was drunk
You’ve considered joining the army: FALSE!
You consider yourself hotter than most of your friends: False
You ARE hotter than most of your friends: False
You’ve been called a bitch to your face: True
You’ve called your mom a bitch to her face: False
You’d do anything to make the voices in your head stop: True?
You always get what you want: False
It’s better to give than it is to receive: I guess True
People assume you’re older than you really are: True
You would be a good president: We'd all die
Old people suck: I'm half and half on that
Everyone is, in the end, disposable: True |
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| Word |
[Jul. 14th, 2004|03:17 am] |
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Gary again <3 |
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| yo... |
[Jul. 14th, 2004|02:02 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  drunk | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Co&Ca - "Three Evils (Embodied in Love and Shadow)" | ] |
I'm so drunk |
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| A sad attempt at an intelligent conversation...<3 Jonathan, that dumb fuck |
[Jul. 13th, 2004|04:00 am] |
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| | Suffering from insomnia | ] |
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| | Lots of old Metallica | ] |
Even though it's raining...I love it
XToxicRagdollX: its so nice out
XToxicRagdollX: its all breezy
SoundView18: its going to be liek this all week
XToxicRagdollX: really
XToxicRagdollX: damn
SoundView18: well what do you expect the world is coming for a hard time
SoundView18: in about five years we are going to run out of
SoundView18: jsut wait for it
XToxicRagdollX: run out of what
SoundView18: oil
XToxicRagdollX: what does that have to do with the rain
SoundView18: the thing that makes the world go round
SoundView18: lol
XToxicRagdollX: i thought u meant we'd run out of water
SoundView18: the weathers changing
SoundView18: its summer and look how it looks out side
SoundView18: that wont be the problem , us having too much of it will
SoundView18: lol
XToxicRagdollX: yea what with the polor icecaps melting and all
XToxicRagdollX: but what did that all have to do with oil
SoundView18: yeah
SoundView18: jsut the fact that we are running out of it and civilization needs it to survive
SoundView18: think about it
XToxicRagdollX: you mean how are we going to survive in these conditions?
SoundView18: ummm we not going to
SoundView18: watch its going to be hell
XToxicRagdollX: exactly thats what i said
SoundView18: i hope we can find a way to overcome
XToxicRagdollX: interesting
SoundView18: but i doubt it
XToxicRagdollX: pretty much and then this war
XToxicRagdollX: and all the political bullshit going on
XToxicRagdollX: we're just going to keep killing and killing till theres nothing left
XToxicRagdollX: i say the apocolypse is coming
SoundView18: nah
SoundView18: we will survive
SoundView18: we just going to suffer alot
SoundView18: lol
XToxicRagdollX: then hell I'm dead
SoundView18: lol
XToxicRagdollX: i don't take kindly to this suffering you speak of
XToxicRagdollX: i'm a fucking pussy
...drugs are bad, and so is insomnia...O_O Someone sing me to sleeeeeeep. SLEEP. |
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| I'm Rick James bitch |
[Jul. 12th, 2004|05:53 pm] |
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| | Boys Night Out - "I got punched in the nose........" | ] |
So Jason threatend to hit me...I see we have a problem...and I'm not going to be the only one involved... |
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| ...you do know it is a federal offense to do such a thing? |
[Jul. 10th, 2004|10:10 pm] |
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| | ready to kill someone | ] |
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| | Shabutie - "Casseopia" | ] |
I am so sick of everyone I can vomit all over this monitor. Cute. I'm happy I saw John today, he made it a good day for me. Other than that it sucked. The self proclaimed "killas" are still here. I feel like their mom it's so ridiculous. Adam's on his way and Gary is officially on my shit list, along with many others. I give up...... |
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| OH GOD THE AFTERMATH! |
[Jul. 10th, 2004|12:07 pm] |
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| |  dirty | ] |
O_O What a fucking day. My house is trashed. Jason, James, and Sam are here. Gary bailed that stupid motherfucker. He's so fucking dead. Adam and his cousin and Allysia are home. We drank alot. It was awesome. Nothing new really. In the life of a drunk. Well, though I won't say much about last night...lets just say it was very interesting. |
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| Good morning sunshine |
[Jul. 9th, 2004|11:53 am] |
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| | Monty Love - "Brutaful" | ] |
Unreliable people. I FUCKING hate them. Jason, James, Gary and the guys are fucking impossible. Maybe it's just me O_O well they're on they're way here now which is cool. Lots of partying. Better be or it will be w.a.r.
Later Days |
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| The Fiction We Live |
[Jul. 7th, 2004|06:02 pm] |
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| | Last Days of April - "Angel Youth" | ] |
Gary <3 |
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| I am but a small orphan child! |
[Jul. 6th, 2004|04:24 pm] |
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| | Dead Poetic - "Glass in the Trees" | ] |
So yea I got my cigarettes. I'm happy. Sam wants to hang out. NO. I'm bored. It's hott. I'm broke. I can't go out and I hate it. I need a job. I need to get back to skool first. There's a problem for everything I see... |
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| I really like what you havn't done with the place... |
[Jul. 4th, 2004|08:47 pm] |
First off I'm going to stop doing alot of things. Yea. I need to better myself.
Second...It was a crazy ass weekend...which ended pretty great. Well, I've been awake since yesterday at 2pm and I havn't even taken a nap. I'm fuckin stupid.
Well, everyone seems to hate me. Why? I don't know but fuck it. Demo talked to me about it and it was awesome, but people like Jason being a fucking asshole...that's just wrong.
I hate holidays...4th of July sucks.
I need a car badly.
Random outbursts....huh? Yea
...and you know what...it IS a bad idea...NEVER AGAIN. |
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| They stole our innocence, they broke our foundation |
[Jul. 1st, 2004|07:09 pm] |
So yea...You see everytime someone says they like me it weirds me out. Like I just don't see why. Whatever...I'm just too suspicious of people...Can't trust them...Gotta learn to...but to a certain extent...
Your fullname is...: Nicole Alaina Young
Your nicknames are..: Nikki, Al
Your birthday is...: You know this
Your age is...: that too
Your best friend is...: Sid and Allysia
Your eye color is....: Brown
Your hair color is...: Black
Your height is...: 5'6" dammit
Your close friends are...: You know who you guys are
Your email address is....: XxX_Stolen_XxX .....No aol I don't like junk email
Your screenname(s) are...: DarkStars7 and XToxicRagdollX
Your hometown is....: Lower Manhatten
Your parents are...: Migdalia and Darren
Your brothers are...: Eddie and Richard
Your sisters are...: Mimi as I call her
your greatest fear is...: the future still
your fave songs are...: "Black" - Pearl Jam
your fave singer is...: Claudio
your fave movie is....: yep...The Rocky Horror Picture Show
your fave radio station is....: 89.5 WSOU
your fave actor is...: Johnny Depp
your fave actress is....: Milla Jovevich...everyone knows all this stuff already
your fave tv show is....: None
your fave cartoon is...: Family Guy
your fave cartoon character is...: None
your fave sport is...: Skateboarding, Moto X, shit like that
your fave thing to do is...: Sleep
your fave sports team is...: None
your fave athlete is...: None
your fave number is...: 7
your fave month is....: November, and June
your fave season is....: Autumn
your fave holiday is...: Halloweeeeen
your fave day of the week is....: Thursday
your fave class is...: I don't go to skool
your fave teacher is...: No skool
your fave place is...: The beach at night
your fave vacation spot is...: I don't get vacation
your fave subject is...: I fucking dropped out stop asking
your fave letter is....: O_o F as in FUCK THIS
your fave animal is...: Panda
your fave family member is...: My brother and my aunt
you fave person 2 talk 2 is...: You
the best thing anybodys ever said 2 u was....: "You're such a bitch I love it"
the best thing youve ever said 2 anybody was...: "You're fucking awesome"
the best thing youve ever done is....: Move
the best thing anyones ever done 4 u is...: Ehh noone does anything nice for me
your heart belongs too...: me, no one knows what to do with it :-(
the funnest time uve ever had was...: EVERYDAY
the funniest thing thats ever happend 2 u was....: Walking into the bus stop and falling asleep in random places...fuckin drunk
the funniest thing anyones ever said 2 u was...: Too many things to list
the worst thing anybodys ever said 2 u was..: The worst thing anyone can say is call me a whore
the worst thing youve ever said 2 anybody was...: I say alot of mean things
the worst thing someones ever done 2 u was...: Left me heartbroken
the worst thing youve ever done 2 sum1 was...: I don't know ask them
the wierdest thing anyones ever said 2 u was....: anytime someone says I'm hot....it's weird
the wierdest thing youve ever done was....: Stop asking
the wierdest thign anyones ever done to u is....: Lmao can't say
the best vacation uve ever been on was...: None
the best field trip uve ever been on was...: None
you are currently doing....: Your mom
you are currently talkin 2....: Matt online
you are currently hangin out with....: Noone anymore
you are currently feelin...: Quite odd
the last person you talked 2 was....: Gary online
the last person you saw was...: Sid, and Gigi
the last person you spent the night with was...: Those kids yesterday and Sam
the last person who spent the night with u was...: Sam
the last person you hung out w/ was...: Sam and those kids I just said that
the last place u went was....: Tom's house
the last shower u took was...: This morning
the last time u ate was...: like 3 hours ago
the last time u slept was....: Last night dumbass
the last time u jus couldnt take your mind of a certain person was...: everyday, different people
the last time u felt depressed was....: Yesterday
the last time u were sad was....: Yesterday
the last time u were happy was...: Yesterday
the last time u laughed was...: All the time
the last time u cried was...: maybe a week ago
the last thing u gave up on was...: him
the last person u talked on the phone with was...: Adam
the time is now....: 6:56pm
the date of today is....: July 1st
your summer plans are..: Have fun
your after highschool plans are...: I'm done with HS...not supposed to be but I am
the last vacation u went on was...: I heard this already
the last person u hugged was...: Don't know
the last person u kissed was...: Sam
the last person u told that u loved them was...: I don't say that only to friends in a friendship way
the last person who told u they loved u was...: Sam
the last person u told u hated was...: Lots of people
the last person who told u that they hated u was...: I don't know
the last person who tried 2 make u feel better was...: Noone ever does
the last person u talked 2 on aim was...: My aim don't work
the last time you played a sport was...: never
the last time u exercised was...: Never
the last person u got in an argument with was...: Adam
the las person u got mad at was...: Adam
the las person who got mad at u was...: Adam
the last time youve done anything sexually was...: almost 2 weeks ago
the last time uve had a boyfriend/girlfriend was...: Monthes ago...I don't count my gf shes annoying
the last time uve had a crush on sumbody was...: a few monthes ago
the last time uve felt empty inside was...: Most of the time
the last time uve done sumthin u regretted was...: Few weeks ago
if you could have three wishes, what would it be...: Lots of money, and just a good life
the last dream you had that u remember is...: Can't remember
if you could be anybody you would be...: Me
if you could have any special power it would be...: Spontanious combustion
if you could have anything you want it would be...: Love
if you could make anybody do anything who & what would it be...: Jeremy jump off a building
if there was one person that you absolutely hated, it would be..: Jeremy lol
the last wish youve made on your birthday cake was...: Didn't make one
the most expensive thing you own is....: My skateboard
do you have a....
a computer of ur own?: I wish
a cellphone?: I wish
a car?: I wish
a room of your own?: I wish
a house of your own?: I wish lol I suck
a tv in ur room?: Yea
a phone in ur room?: No I have a cordless
a phoneline of ur own?: No
a best friend?: Yea
a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Need one </3
a crush on someone?: sorta
a craving for something in particular at the moment?: Cigarette
anyone in your life that you could honestly say that u wuld die for?: Not anymore
anyone in your life that wuld die for u?: No I said
a pet of ur own?: Sam
any money of ur own at the moment?: I have a fucking dollar to my name
someone in ur life that u look up to?: No
someone in ur life that looks up to u?: No
about your friends
the nicest: Allysia
the meanest: All of us
the funniest: Most of us
the craziest: Little John
the wierdest: Little John
the coolest: Allysia
the prettiest: Allysia
the handsomest: I know alot
the smartest: Me...god help us all
the dumbest: To many choices
the sluttiest: Sam
the blondest: Blonde Sam
the most mature: I don't know
the most immature: Too many
the most annoying: Adam, Sam
your closest: Sid, Jason, James
the one youve known the longest: Same as above
the one you trust the most: Same as above and Allysia
the one(s) you share all ur secrets with: Same as above
this or that
summer or winter: Winter
spring or fall: Fall
christmas or halloween: Halloween
mom or dad: Dad
boyfriend/girlfriend or friends: Boyfriends and need one :-(
task or goal: goal
music or tv: Music all the fucking way
tv or movies: Neither
internet or tv: Internet
instant messaging or games: IM
the first word that comes to mind when u hear the word...
school: Drop out
friends: ehh
family: sucks
zoo: Sam
vacation: NONE dammit
ocean: water
internet: awesome
jail: Never
home: is nowhere
and the time is now....: 7:11pm |
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| Word... |
[Jul. 1st, 2004|04:16 pm] |
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| |  confused | ] |
WHAT THE FUCK?!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| It's the fucking Crypt Keeper yo |
[Jul. 1st, 2004|03:14 am] |
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| | FUCKED UP | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Metallica - "No Leaf Clover" | ] |
I actually hung out with people I think are cool. I hate those fake ass gangstas or so called "goths" or "punk rockers". I HATE kids like that. Mad labels. Not cool. Whatever. I had fun today. Went to the mall with Sam. Got a new shirt. Rad. FINALLY got some cigarettes. Beer is always great. Fuck that intake tomorrow. Shit...what the fuck I look like...I'm mad fucked up...sleep time motherfuckers.
Goodnight, goodnight... |
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| ...and suddenly there was w.a.r. |
[Jun. 29th, 2004|10:38 pm] |
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| | I don't fucking know | ] |
I talk waaaaay to much shit for my own good. Oh wow I said that like I fucking care. Hehehe. Too bad I don't. I would probably have alot more friends. Screw friends...what the fuck is friends? There was a point when I loved all my friends but what the fuck is love? God I hate most of these kids what the fuck am I thinking? Love...ugh I say if someone can pull me out then hell get a rope. I need all the help I can get...well from now on I won't talk to them unless they want me to. I won't talk to him unless he wants me to...and when that time comes I'll do what he says........because I love him...that and I'm a fucking pussy by not being able to handle a real problem. I think...I give up on him...
"sooo just have a nice life and decide what ever u want to"
Yea... |
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| In negative space supposed flaws go unseen, but our stregnth is shown |
[Jun. 29th, 2004|03:47 pm] |
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| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Anti-Flag - "Rank N File" | ] |
*Ok first off this isn't today's entry...it's yesterday's, as in June 28th. I'm typing this entry and saving it until I can post it tomorrow. You see...I can't get online. My phone lines are dead for the 50 millionth time. Nothing ever fucking works here!!!!*
Monday, June 28th - 3:44pm
I am so fucking hungover. Saturday I was supposed to hang out with that kid Brian and somehow ended up in the Bronx at James house. Jason lives there by the way. Well, they wanted to drink or whatever so I came. I got there like at 1am. So we stood up watching skate vids and just talking shit until like 7am. The sleeping situation was a bit...insane. 3 people in a twin sized bed. I don't know how we did it but we did. Woke up, played some Tony Hawk and Izy (Karina's boyfriend that fat little shit) came over. He got smacked up by some guy it was hilarious. Everyone seems to hate that kid as much as we all hate his girlfriend. Aww. Played video games while Jason and James practiced a song. Well, heres a sucky part. I had borrowed James clothes to sleep so I had to change back to go outside and I decided "Hey, James let me borrow this belt" So I put it on and it was to big so I had to put another hole in the belt so it would fit. Jason hands over his knife. I start to make the hole and somehow, because I am the luckiest girl ever, the blade closes on my finger. Thankfully I still have a finger, but I did not know the finger holds that much blood. It went in real deep and blood came out everywhere, all on the floor and left a trail all the way to the bathroom that I ran too. It's ok now, just hurts and it's like a huge gash but the shock when it first happened made me have a panic attack because I thought I cut my finger halfway off. I got nervous and shaky had to sit in front of the fan after for air. Lol, I was being a pussy but it fucking scared me so yea. The shit that happens to me. Well, later on, playing more games, Izy leaves and Sid comes over. Then Gary. From James house we went to Chucks house. We had to walk through Little Italy, Aurthur Ave. Belmont Library...I havn't been there in like almost a year. O_O Well we were at Chucks, played video games, yet again, talked shit and whatever. That's when I heard of the super cool party no one wanted to invite Nicole to. Jason starts making a joke how I remind him of Mario and Jason says "Oh yea remember him and Gary's birthday party?" I was like.....what? What party? These MOTHERFUCKERS did not tell me about a fucking party. I mean they have Mario and a bunch of assholes there and don't even think to invite me. Fuck them, they're not visiting me for shit. I'm not telling them about shit, parties, shows, nothing. I'm very pissed how they bitch about Mario so much and they always talk shit about how much they hate him and they let him go and not me. Not fucking cool at all. From there we went back to James house. Ate dinner and FINALLY left to Adam's house. We ate some more listened to music and drank a lot. I drank more then them and I got fucked up. I was spilling stuff everywhere, talking shit. Adam's mom was being mad cool though, she's really cool. Adam argued with me for no reason I don't know what the fuck. He's never seen me drunk so fuck it. I don't care. I think we left there like at 12-1am. BACK to James house once again and changed, put music on and still kept bugging out. Omg we just kept on and on acting stupid. Then we tried to sleep. Thankfully Jason took the couch and Me and James got the bed because I needed rest, I mean I was fucking out of it. So finally this morning I wake up...WORST HANGOVER EVER. I think I was still a little drunk it was that bad. I fucking threw up like 3 times, had a horrible headache and felt so tired. I was up at like 9am. James walked with me to the train like at 10:30. I felt so sleepy on the train. Finally got home, Sam called like 20 times...literally. She left 20 messages that fucking crazy ass bitch. Didn't matter because my phone lines were dead. The phone people should come tomorrow hopefully. PLEASE DO!!! So now I feel better, got to shower, change and EAT! I was so fucking hungry. I couldn't eat all day. On the ferry I stood outside and like was hanging off the side resting my eyes and getting fresh air. Must have looked stupid but I felt better after. I still have a headache and I feel tired. Well, tomorrow is supposed to be the SIHP show at Dock St. and I'm not going...>_< I have no money, I don't want to see Sam, I have to make sure the phone company is coming. It's all a bunch of bullshit I swear. I guess I'll go another time...really fucking sucks dammit. FUCK! Ok...and Warped Tour...if Adam decides to stop being such a pussy then I guess we'll be going. Whatever. I wrote a lot of bullshit and as always I'm still boring, it's hott, my ac is on so I'm taking a nap. Goodnight, Goodnight.
Later Days, motherfuckers <3
TODAY-Tuesday, June 29th
The phone works so yea I'm back. I cleaned the entire house! Omfg. I can't believe I did that. Well, I woke up still feeling sick this morning but I am 100% right now. I decided maybe I shouldn't drink anymore. I hate the after effect. Ahh...it's good to be back |
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| Ahh some good news... |
[Jun. 26th, 2004|07:15 pm] |
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| | YEY | ] |
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| | Co&Ca- "Everything Evil-acoustic" | ] |
I'm going out of town see you in a few days... |
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| ...but you don't see me...you don't... |
[Jun. 26th, 2004|01:58 pm] |
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| | Stupid | ] |
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| | Story of the Year - "Anthem of Our Dying Day" | ] |
>_<
Stupid shit always happens to me. I went to school yesterday...the last day. Saw everyone which was pretty rad, and my eye is feeling much better, I have cigarettes, it's the weekend, and I returned my stuff to the school and got my working papers. Got everything out of the way. Why don't I feel a little better then? Yesterday I was at the mall at 10:30am. Why? Don't ask bordom. Went with a bunch of people and I had my folder with all my stuff in it. Working papers, social security card, and my birth certificate. I remember leaving for a few with Jack and Mangela and later on I realized. My folder is gone. I lost it like a fucking idiot. I was so fucking pissed. I saw mad people at the mall but I didn't care. I had money to buy stuff and I spent it on bullshit. We all went into Aeropostal and I saw the nicest shirt on sale for $10 and I didn't have enough because I spent it on bullshit. WTF...I was so mad.
I might go to the Bronx tomorrow but I don't even want to do anything this weekend anymore. Yea after the huge fuss I made right? I don't even feel like it. Too much on my mind...I don't think I'll get into THAT though.
Later Days
Bordom
Name: NIKKI
Sex: Female
Straight/Gay/Bi-Sexual: Bi
Single: Yea >_<
DOB: June 9
Occupation: Drunk
Age: 17
Age I act: Depends how I feel and If I'm drunk or not
Age I wish I was: 21
Height: 5'6"
Eye Color: Brown
Happy with it?: Nah it's boring
Lefty/Righty/Ambidextrous: Righty
Family: Mom, Sister, 2 Brothers
Pets: Sam
Piercings?: 6 in my ears, and my lip
Tattoos?: I want 4 so far...the Keywork on my inner left arm, the Co&Ca dragonfly on my lower back, a heart on my stomach, and the hot ass ASL design that's on my shirt with the winged creatures holding a broken heart on my upper back
Do you speak another language?: A very tiny bit of spanish , I understand more than I speak
Have a favorite quote?: Not sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not sure
Deep thoughts about life and you in it?: I think I may have mentioned many of them in this journal
Do you live in the moment? Most of the time
Do you have any secrets? Of course
Do you hate yourself? Most of the time
Do you like your handwriting?: I write like a 2 year old boy
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: I'll get back to you on that
Can you sing?: Sometimes
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: No
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Nah I'm too annoying
Are you passive or aggressive?: aggresive at times
Do you have a journal?: What do you think I writing in?
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: No
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? Finishing High School, going out with certain people
Do you think life has been good so far? It's had it's good points but no
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? Learned alot about love, being in love, losing it and I learned to live though I'm still in love...
What do you like the most about your body?: Nothing really
Do you smoke?: Yea
Drink?: Yea
Read the newspaper?: I watch the news more
Pray?: No
Go to church?: No
Talk to strangers who IM you?: If they're not creepy
Sleep with stuffed animals?: No
Take walks in the rain?: Not intentionally
Drive?: No
Like to drive fast?: No
Have you ever...
Been out of the country?: No
Eaten something that made other people sick?: Tomato soup
Been in love?: Yes
Done drugs?: Shut up
Had a medical emergency?: Miscarraige
Had surgery?: No
Ran away from home? Not funny
Played strip poker? No
Got beaten up?: Playing around
Beaten someone up?: ^^^
Been picked on?: Yea just like most kids
Gone one day without food?: I've gone several days without
Talked on the phone all night?: Yea
Slept together with the opposite sex: Yea
Slept all day?: Yea
Killed someone?: Oh god they're after me
Made out with a stranger?: No
Had sex with a stranger?: No
Thought you're going crazy?: O yea
Done anything sexual with the same sex? yea
Had a dream that came true?: Yea
Broken the law?: Most likley
Met a famous person?: Yea but I didn't care
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: No My brother hit a cat with his car and I'm against animal cruelty
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: Yea
Stolen anything?: Want to see the collection from the mall?
Been on radio/tv?: No
Had a nervous breakdown?: Plenty of times
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yea
Miracles?: Don't happen for me
Magic?: No
God?: No
Santa?: No
Ghosts?: Sometimes
Luck?: I am the SI's most unlucky girl
Love at first sight?: Maybe
Do you wish on stars? Never works
Deep theological questions...
Do you believe in the traditional view of heaven and hell? Uhm...not really
Do you think god has a gender?: Definitly a guy
where do you think we go when we die?: I don't know about you guys but I'll be left wandering
The friends...
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Alot lol
Who is your best friend?: I don't think so anymore...Allysia
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Stitches, Demo, Sam
Who's your longest known friend?: Maria, Chewie, Demo
Newest?. Kids from Port and the mall
Shyest?: Allysia
Funniest?: All of them
Sweetest?: Sammy
Cutest?: Alot of them, Allysia, Bam, Demo, Markeda, and so on
Closest?: Ugh
Weirdest?: Little John
Smartest? Iono
Friend you miss being close to the most?: Demo >_<
Last person you talked to online?: Brian
Who are you on the phone with most?: no one really
Who do you trust most?: No one
Who listens to your problems?: Sam
Who do you fight most with?: SAM and Alberto
Who's the nicest?: Allysia
Who's the best singer?: ME...that's a lie
Do you always feel understood?: Ehh
Who's the loudest friend?: We're all loud
Do you trust others easily?: No
Who's house were you last at?: Probably Gerardo's before skool ended
Do your friends know you?: How are they my friends if they don't know me?
Friend that lives farthest away: Everyone in the Bronx, Luis in Florida, Bryan in Cali
Love and all that...
Do you consider love a mistake?: In my last situation, yes
What do you find romantic? Ehh
First kiss? Michael
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: Yea
Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out: Doesn't make a diff but I'd rather a guy ask me out so at least I know he likes me
Who was the last person...
You wanted to kill?: It's still Stitch
That you laughed at?: Andrew
That laughed at you?: Me
You went shopping with?: Little John, Jenna, Allysia
That broke your heart?: to make you cry?: That's not funny...
That you thought about?: Bryan (Diaz)
You talked to on the phone?: Adam
You saw?: EVERYONE
Who are you going out with?: Noone >_< not by choice
What are you wearing right now?: Blue plaid pajama pants, A Static Lullbay Tee and vans
What are you worried about right now?: Being alone
What book are you reading?: None everyone borrowed my books
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: Oh God The After-Math
Are you bored?: Yes
Are you tired?: No sleep
Are you talking to anyone online?: Brian (not Diaz)
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: No
Are you lonely or content?: Lonely
Are you listening to music?: Sugarcult
Song that makes you happy: Anything Monty Love
Song that makes you want to cry: "Short Stories with Tragic Endings" - FATA and "Trust" - Thrice
Song that makes you feel dreamy: "Anatomy of a Journey" - Boys Night Out and "Trouble" - Coldplay
Song that makes you sleepy: "I, Robot" - Coheed and Cambria
Song that makes you want to dance: I don't dance
Song that makes you want to close your ears: Too many to list
Song that makes you think of that special someone: "God Send Conspirator" - Coheed and Cambria...Don't ask
Song that makes you feel relaxed: Most music
Song that makes you feel inspired: Alot of music
Song that makes you want to sing along: Anything Coheed
Which of your CLOSE friends have you known the longest?: Demo, Sid, Chewie
Which of your CLOSE friends you have known the shortest?: Allysia and kids from Port
Who of your friends is the tallest?: Jack and Kevin they're both like 6'1"
Who of your friends is the shortest?: Demo, Bam and many others
Who do you talk to for LOVE advice?: Noone
Who do you talk to for SEX advice?: Noone
Who do you talk to for SCHOOL advice?: Lots of people
Who can always cheer you up?: Very few people
Who can always bring you down?: Demo
Who can always put you in your place?: Demo, Mario
Who can always make you do stupid things?: Me
Who brings out the best in you?: Me
Who can you cry to?: Noone
Who do you share your deepest secrets with?: Noone
Who do you wish you saw more of?: People from the Bronx
Who do you need to see less of?: Sam
Who is the biggest flirt of your friends?: Sam, Kevin, Anthony
Who is the most retarded?: Kevin
Who is the proudest of your friends?: The Graduating ones
Who will become a nun?: Allysia
Who will become a stripper?: Sam....::cringe::
Who will become a teacher?: None
Who will become a doctor?: o god Noone
Who will stay unemployed forever?: Stitch
Who will marry first?: Probably me then get divorced and inherit lots of money
Who will have the most kids?: Demo lol, he loves kids
Who will live the longest?: Me, just my luck
Who will you remember forever?: Everyone
Who is your friend with benifits?: Brian
Who do you love the most?: Everyone because they all have something special about them, I know it sounds like some stupid after skool special but yea... |
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| The A12 Interegations: Short Distances and Shorter Conversations...and Our Roles Are Reversed... |
[Jun. 24th, 2004|05:38 pm] |
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| | Uhmm | ] |
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| | Dead Poetic - "New Medicines" | ] |
HOW LONG WILL THIS GO ON?!!!
I'm such a sucker for it all...
Soo, LJ FINALLY works. God the systems were down all day. I'm putting a new layout. What else...? I didn't go to the Job Readiness (yey) because of this thing in my eye (boo) Turns out there are 3 in there. So fucking gross. I have to go to school tomorrow to hand in books, receive a report card (no point in that)and then after I'm going to the mall to buy a nice shirt, then I have to go to job readiness. Ugh. I'm so glad it's over. Though I have to make up for today next Thursday but I'll live. Sam's coming to get her stuff and drop of the FATA shirt she got me. She did something I agree with for once. I'm not going to that parade, fuck that. I'm going to the Bronx to see the guys. I havn't settled things with Demo...Kind of wish we could come to terms. Bam and him just like had a break up, lol. Bam picked up his stuff from his house and left. Ohhh the drama.
Well, it's almost the weekend...2 days until freedom. WOOO!
Later Days |
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| I think I'm drowning... |
[Jun. 23rd, 2004|09:02 pm] |
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| | Muse - "Time is running out concept version. domestic" | ] |
This fucking sucks. I have to go outside with this thing on my eye! FUCK! On the bright side of today I got 2 packs of cigarettes. Yes...3 days was my limit. I can't quit, ugh.
Later Days |
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